Why do I strive for control? Control isn’t freedom. Control is bondage. Control is pride. Control is misplaced trust. Control isn’t faith. Control is a lack of belief; a lack of belief in the goodness and faithfulness of God.
Control isn’t life because control leads to death. Death - I’m afraid of death and not just leaving this earth death but death to the flesh. “Yes” to the spirit and “no” to the flesh. In surrender there is risk. In surrender there is pain. But the pain that comes from control is separation from God (hell). The pain that comes from control is an eternal, forever separation from God. The pain that comes with surrender is temporary. The pain that comes with surrender is promised to cease. The pain that comes with surrender brings glory to God.
Surrender is a choice. Control is a choice. Which will it be? The middle is no place to be. I am my own god in the middle. Surrender is scary because that means my flesh can no longer be satisfied. But my soul is what desperately needs nourishment.
I am thirsty for the living water: Jesus. Jesus who satisfies. Jesus who is in control. Jesus who is sovereign over all. Jesus who loves. Jesus who saves. Jesus who frees me from myself, my sin, my flesh and my eternity separate from Him.
Drink Him in. Surrender.
Surrender is life (to the spirit). Surrender is death (to the flesh).
The life that my soul longs for. Death that my flesh fears.
“For to me to live is Christ, and to die is gain.”
Philippians 1:21 ESV
“For if you live according to the flesh you will die, but if by the Spirit you put to death the deeds of the body, you will live.”
Romans 8:13 ESV
“But I have calmed and quieted my soul, like a weaned child with its mother; like a weaned child is my soul within me.”
Psalm 131:2 ESV
Contentment. Peace. Calm. Quiet.
Trust. Surrender. Live.